Yes, I would actually like to thank Denny for leaving me.....lol. Denny left me before he made some big decisions. Knowing that he actually left me before he did those things, when he felt like doing those things, is good. I know he loved me. I always thought I was happy, and I think I was. But what I am feeling now, is real happiness :) I am sooooooo happy. I don't know how to explain it....but feeling FREE! I love life! I love my kids! I love my cute apartment! I love my family! I love me! I feel so good! When I read the post from last month, I see so much hurt. I was really hurt...Don't think Denny ever saw the pain I felt. But if I would have known then what a blessing I would see in this....I see things differently now. I do not regret my marriage with Denny in any way. From that marriage I have the most amazing, wonderful, cutest kids EVER! They are my life. The reason I live every single day! I love them and hearing them laugh...and seeing their smiles. Ryanne says so many cute things....and yells cute things too. lol She rules this house.
Me and Denny have become great friends. We have been able to be friends for the kids sake. The kids have had a hard time. They want to live with both parents. Colby has been living with his Dad for a couple weeks. Mason also wanted to, then we decided maybe in our situation joint custody would be best. So, we are now trying this. I had them for a whole week last week! Which was great having Colby home all that time. He is growing up soooooo fast! His voice is also cracking....LOL He is my buddy. Mason has had some struggles. He is very sensitive, but we are getting through it. Ryanne, oh where do I begin?? She seriously cracks me up. She is a very strong willed girl with lungs! lol But she is also so lovey dovey. Now it is Denny's turn to have them for a week. At first I thought it sounded kind of nice. I have had the kids most the time since he left, would get a break. They have been gone since Sunday (two days) I MISS THEM SO MUCH!! It is too quiet in my place. I am finding stuff to do to keep myself busy, cuz I miss them like crazy!!
I am enjoying the single life. It is actually really fun. I have met some really nice guys. (Don't worry, I have no plans of getting serious for a LONG time ;) In this process, I am also finding myself. I can be who I want to be! I think I also took in many lessons from our marriage. Marriage should not be so much work, for one person. Trust is sooo important in a marriage also.
My job is coming to an end :( June 4th will be my last day. As of right now I am looking into going to school in the fall to be a teacher or school counselor. We have had allot of fun this spring though. We have gone to Lagoon countless times. I have had me and Colby time at Lagoon and Me and Amy time also. Mason, we just hang in kiddie land, but he is getting there. Ryanne loves Lagoon! She gets excited when she know that is where we are going.
Well, I just thought I would give a random update. Sorry, not much photos.
But I took this photo below of Colby on the sky ride at Lagoon. I love it! I love him. Look how all growed up he is!! He is now 5ft10in (which is now taller than me)
Me and Denny have become great friends. We have been able to be friends for the kids sake. The kids have had a hard time. They want to live with both parents. Colby has been living with his Dad for a couple weeks. Mason also wanted to, then we decided maybe in our situation joint custody would be best. So, we are now trying this. I had them for a whole week last week! Which was great having Colby home all that time. He is growing up soooooo fast! His voice is also cracking....LOL He is my buddy. Mason has had some struggles. He is very sensitive, but we are getting through it. Ryanne, oh where do I begin?? She seriously cracks me up. She is a very strong willed girl with lungs! lol But she is also so lovey dovey. Now it is Denny's turn to have them for a week. At first I thought it sounded kind of nice. I have had the kids most the time since he left, would get a break. They have been gone since Sunday (two days) I MISS THEM SO MUCH!! It is too quiet in my place. I am finding stuff to do to keep myself busy, cuz I miss them like crazy!!
I am enjoying the single life. It is actually really fun. I have met some really nice guys. (Don't worry, I have no plans of getting serious for a LONG time ;) In this process, I am also finding myself. I can be who I want to be! I think I also took in many lessons from our marriage. Marriage should not be so much work, for one person. Trust is sooo important in a marriage also.
My job is coming to an end :( June 4th will be my last day. As of right now I am looking into going to school in the fall to be a teacher or school counselor. We have had allot of fun this spring though. We have gone to Lagoon countless times. I have had me and Colby time at Lagoon and Me and Amy time also. Mason, we just hang in kiddie land, but he is getting there. Ryanne loves Lagoon! She gets excited when she know that is where we are going.
Well, I just thought I would give a random update. Sorry, not much photos.
But I took this photo below of Colby on the sky ride at Lagoon. I love it! I love him. Look how all growed up he is!! He is now 5ft10in (which is now taller than me)
